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Going back to blogging after a long break – can be too difficult!

It is after 3 months that I am logging in to my blog. 

Yes, I am alive. 

Yes, I went away for an extended holiday to my homeland. Yes, I went with the full intention of logging in as soon as jet lag wore off. Sadly it didn’t happen for me like that, nothing like that all.  

When you click on anything - except your own blog.

I do not know what happened, except that I was literally in a different world. I was in a world where we have maids doing practically everything for us. We have chauffeurs for our cars, we have tons of help in the kitchen – and for everything else imaginable. And no, one doesn’t have to be a millionaire to have all this. In countries like Pakistan, labour is cheap, and is easily available, and rest of the country reaps the benefits. And then I had actually people to talk to – like living things – my gorgeous family members.

So I got lazy.

And this is an understatement! 

To be honest, I did not feel like writing even though this is one of the things I cannot image not doing – ever. I felt out of groove, out of touch with reality. Surely this few weeks at my mum’s house is not real. I did not want to wake up. It was sooo beautiful.

Needless to say, I got back home, to a world of work and chores and responsibilities – and only person to take care of it all. Me. 

My depression wouldn’t go away. I knew there were things to be taken care of. Even the thought of picking up a book – my most favourite activity in the whole world – sent my spiralling in a pool of tears. I was questioning if there was a purpose to it all. I was so sad. You have probably been there, I am sure this happens to all of us once in a while – one doesn’t need a long overdue wonderful visit from family to go through this. For me, this is all too familiar and it’s a cycle. I have to ride it out or it won’t go away. Mercifully, it does, every single time.

My lonely blog screaming for attention!

Are you still with me? Yes this post is all about me, and it’s most probably really boring as well. What the heck, it’s not like I have a professional blog right? I can choose to be a little self –indulgent eh? Plus, I did not know how else to start. After each exhausting day, I was lying down in bed thinking about what to write. After a long leave of absence, I just couldn’t start writing about ‘how to write a killer post’ or ‘six tips to feel good’ or something like that which I am sure are very worthy topics, but don’t seem like ideal ones to a slightly depressed mind. YAY for slightly!

I was scared to look at my blog, fearing all the fellow bloggers to have given up on me. This is a very scary feeling, its not been long since I have become a ‘blogger’ and its no fun without having supportive, kind fellow bloggers who actually take the time out to read but – comment. Hope you are reading this.

Blogging is hard

So… last night I thought, why not write exactly about how I feel. So, that’s precisely what I have done. Didn’t seem too hard. Now if I can only start participating in other blogs, add new bogs that I haven’t gotten to just yet, go back to researching and learning a hundred things to make my blog ‘better’, and pick up a book … I will be alright.

I am sure there are million other things that one does when one is blogging, but they all escape me right now. I am sure they will come to me in time.

Have you ever taken a break from your blog? Did you find it hard to start again? Do share, as I can so relate right now. And I do need the support.

28 Comments

  1. Kristin Brænne Says :
    Posted on April 8, 2011 at 4:48 pm

    ★★★★★

  2. Keith Stevenson Says :
    Posted on April 8, 2011 at 5:00 pm

    Croeso yn ‘ol, Marya, as we say in Wales – welcome back!
    Sorry you’ve felt sad – hope you’re feeling good now, and our good thoughts are beaming to you.

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 9, 2011 at 7:16 pm

      Hi Keith, thanks very much for the kind words and warm welcome … I feel much better. 🙂 How is it going? Cheers 🙂

  3. Sandra Bell Kirchman Says :
    Posted on April 8, 2011 at 5:26 pm

    Well, I for one am just glad you are back. I worried about you – you were gone so long. And I missed you. I think you wrote exactly the right thing, and it WAS interesting and helpful. I’m going through a bit of depression myself right now, and it’s comforting to hear from someone who is in the process of whipping that old depression.

    My opinion is you should probably just write what you feel like. I will come and read it and so will others. Lots of people really like you Marya…and I admire you for leaving all that wonderful stuff and going to a frontier country and working your fingers to the bone.

    Welcome back. Just write – don’t worry about whether we like it or not. You will get your desire back to write more. And we will read it all.

    *hug*

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 9, 2011 at 7:20 pm

      Hi Sandra, I always feel soooo good after reading your comments, thank you very much. They are indeed huge lifesavers.

      Sorry to hear you are feeling low. Hope you feel better soon too. When I land firmly on my feet, I’ll be getting in touch with you – I remember your offer to help me get going in the right direction so I am going to be taking you up on that … keep smiling! :))

  4. Laura Best Says :
    Posted on April 9, 2011 at 2:50 am

    Nice to have you back! I had just started following your blog shortly before you began your holiday! I look forward to getting to know you better.

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 9, 2011 at 7:22 pm

      Hi Laura, thanks for your welcome. I feel the same way. Here is to finding great, likeminded souls, as we blog along, for I seem to never have enough in my life. cheers 🙂

  5. pallasathena2007 Says :
    Posted on April 9, 2011 at 8:36 am

    Welcome back! It’s great to be reading your writing again!

  6. knot2share Says :
    Posted on April 9, 2011 at 5:26 pm

    Hello!
    Everybody has been waiting for your return. Seems like you had a great holiday and that is what it is supposed to be. You enjoyed with family members and that is more important. For somebody like you, it is not going to be that difficult to get back into writing. You have begun now and that should be enough to get your warmed up to serve more delicious recipies on the plate for us. And does not matter what you write about, there are always people to read, in your case. So, worry not. Welcome back! Take your time and it will all come back to you effortlessly.

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 9, 2011 at 7:27 pm

      SUCH beautiful words. Sigh! You did make my day, incase you were wondering ..heheh. Thanks heaps for your vote of confidence. Sometimes it just seems like a dream. I don’t want to sound melodramatic, but to have people actually say they like what you have to say. WOW. It means the world to me. Thanks again, and hope you are having a fab day! :))

  7. aquatom1968 Says :
    Posted on April 9, 2011 at 10:06 pm

    Welcome back Marya! I’ve missed reading your words too! Don’t worry about writing about yourself – I do it all the time, it helps me to make sense of things (in my own way, of course!). And it is good to read that you are feeling better!

    Just write when you want to, and about whatever you choose – it is your blog after all! We’re just sharing your journey with you! 🙂

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 12, 2011 at 2:40 pm

      Thank you. I had a sneak peak at yours, and it looks fantastic. Keep evolving eh…?

  8. tanya Says :
    Posted on April 10, 2011 at 8:04 am

    Hi Marya, Welcome back. I’ve been slowly blogging for about a year now. I tried the write daily thing, but that didn’t work for me. Aquatom1968 says it best, “write when you want to, and what you choose to.” I don’t post as often as I would like to, but I write when I have the time.

    Family time is important; I’m glad that you were able to spend a great time with your family.

    I’m hear and didn’t go anywhere… looking forward to future posts. :000

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 12, 2011 at 2:42 pm

      Hi Tanya. Thanks for your comments. I am in complete agreement with aquatom and yourself. Thats the reason I did not go into technical writing, did hear that it pays quite handsomely too. Ah well, the price one pays for the love ..heheh

  9. Liz
    Posted on April 10, 2011 at 11:16 am

    Welcome back, Marya! How wonderful for you that you were able to take that break and you have people waiting for your return to the blogosphere. Wonderful post! I am taking a a little vacation from my blog in a week and I’m always so scared to lose readers, but you haven’t! Good for you!

    I’m sorrty that you are having a hard time right now, but it will pass. xx Liz

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 12, 2011 at 2:43 pm

      Hi Liz. Yes, its truly incredible to have people waiting for one’s return. I still can’t get my head around it. Thanks for your kind words, its people like yourself that make me coming back. Have a good day! 🙂

  10. KenBroad
    Posted on April 10, 2011 at 2:03 pm

    Welcome back, you have been missed! I was so glad to see that there was a post in my subscriptions from you.

    I know how you feel, and yes I stepped away from my blog for a while too. Life was just demanding too much from me and it seemed that I was posting just for the sake of posting. I had started to find myself but was beginning to feel like I was selling that person out. So I just stopped. One day there, one day gone.

    While I’m truly fortunate to have some very supportive readers/friends (several of them grace the comments above) for the most part the blogging world didn’t even miss me.

    I my case, I totally changed the blog. I jettisoned some stuff that wasn’t working for me and tried to focus more on me. Still it was very slow getting back into the groove, and it was only about 2 weeks ago that I started enjoying this again. While frustrating, I think that I’ve actually benefited from the experience.

    So don’t worry about it friend, if it came be to me, it will most definitely come back to you. Perhaps you might consider a new theme,sort of a mini make over. As for support, count me in for “Team Marya”

    I like to remember the quote “This too shall pass” when it is hard for me to fight on. Hang in there OK.

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 12, 2011 at 2:47 pm

      Hi Ken, previously known as yellowbus? heheh. Yes, I did take a long at your brand new shining blog, and it looks great. Do what makes you happy right? That’s what I always try to do, and sometimes the emotions do get the best of me. Thank you for such warm words. I feel like I can accomplish anything when I have people like yourself, Liz, Tanya, Aquatom, Keith and Sandra (to name a few) rooting for me. I feel blessed. 🙂

  11. Damyanti Says :
    Posted on April 11, 2011 at 3:02 pm

    Welcome back!!! I give up on my blog from time to time, when life gets too hectic, but I’ve learnt the art of coming back pretending nothing was the matter…lol

    Hope you’re feeling better and will be back to regular blogging!

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 12, 2011 at 2:47 pm

      Thanks very much for that. Its good to hear that I am not alone – giving up on my blog that is. heheh

  12. Sarah
    Posted on April 12, 2011 at 2:35 pm

    I know that feeling of stepping away from the blog for way to long. But it’s always there waiting for us when we want to get back to writing. Welcome back and glad you had a lovely visit with your family. Look forward to exchanging insights as fellow ‘newbies’ over at A-List forums.

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 12, 2011 at 2:49 pm

      Hi Sarah, wow, thanks for dropping by. I am pretty excited about A list, having exhausted all avenues of research regarding all things blogging, I feel its the right time to ‘invest’ in my blog. Thanks for your comment, will be seeing you around. 🙂

  13. Josè Pascal Says :
    Posted on April 12, 2011 at 5:08 pm

    Congratulations for your blog. Your posts are very interesting.

  14. Keith Stevenson Says :
    Posted on April 14, 2011 at 12:22 am

    I gather from many of these comments that blog-writers like to have an audience, Marya. In my case, I write for my Family, and add items to my blog in the way one keeps a Journal.
    It does happen that there are occasional visitors and I receive some kindly comments. That, of course, is pleasing.
    I suppose all bloggers know why they blog. However, maybe each of us should make a note of why we started blogging in the first place.
    I know from the comments of the people who read your blog that they do not use their own blogs to say “Hey – look at me!” You seem to attract caring, supportive folk.
    Blog away, young lady – it can be very therapeutic, believe you me!

    • maryawrites Says :
      Posted on April 15, 2011 at 1:31 pm

      Keith, I always enjoy reading your comments -they always seem to calm me down. You are totally right when you say that people blog for different reasons. Also, sometimes these reasons change along the way, and there is nothing wrong with that right?

      I absolutely love learning about new things and then sharing my knowledge with people. This is what keeps me going in life. For this, my friends sometime call me ‘database’. heheh. So basically that’s what I am trying to do here, as its most authentic to me. And so, I want my blog to grow, grow and grow. Teachers need pupils and I need readers. That being said, I would never do a post as a gimmick. Hope you don’t get bored with the direction I am taking. I am thinking of a place for new bloggers to hang out, to experience this journey together and let me read 100 books and present the info for them – hopefully in a manner where they can relate. Thanks for your kindness. 🙂

  15. Keith Stevenson Says :
    Posted on April 15, 2011 at 5:27 pm

    My comments calm you down?! I shall lose my reputation as The Wild Man of Wales if I’m not careful!
    I do notice, though, that the folk who leave comments on your blog, Marya, are caring and supportive. That’s the sort of people you attract. And, yes, one’s reasons for blogging DO change as one progresses – mine have.
    Like yourself, and still in my advancing years, I am “a learning buff” (is that a politically correct phrase? 🙂 ). This wonderful world is so full of interesting and often mind-boggling things, isn’t it?
    You teach in a very user-friendly way, by the way – an important quality which some teachers forget.
    And, to clarify something: yes, I DO have an “About Me” page on my blog – readers do like to know what kind of strange bloke writes the stuff.
    Kindness, young lady, attracts kindness, and you have lots of kindness. Pob hwyl o Cymru Cymraeg!

  16. Krystal Says :
    Posted on June 20, 2014 at 12:11 am

    I’m coming back from what I guess would be defined as a hiatus too! I am really intimidated by the idea of just jumping back in and writing posts about “the best online clothing shops” or “top five summer outfits” when I’ve been away for so long. It doesnt seem right. I wish I had the kutzpa to be as vulnerable with my readership as you have been in this post. Glad your back, and you’re definitely an inspiration.